I juz don't understand my class sometimes...i dunno what they are thinking of and why they are acting. I really feel very very dumb and ignorant after today's "chat" with some of my classmates this afternoon. I totally agree with what Mary said, about friendships in RGS can be very political. I just wish i hadn't stayed back to hear all those things, now it has affected me pretty badly and i juz wish i could see into people's minds...
First things first, maybe i do talk too much and ask too many questions, but I am not trying to seek anybody's attention nor am I trying to be a smart-aleck, or show off anything (since i really have nothing to show off about) or EVEN trying to suck up to the teacher....I DID NOT, AM NOT, and WILL NEVER do that.
If You find me irritating in class, why dun u juz tell me directly? Wat's ur problem? Why muz u spread nasty rumours about me BEHIND MY BACK??? Particularly the one about me gaining MRs Loh's favour...that is just so R-I-D-I-C-U-L-O-U-S, those who truly know me know that i will never do anything to gain any teacher's favour, especially teachers whom i don't even like in the first place. Plus, the reason i ask a lot of questions, is not just for the sake of asking questions, it's simple because i want to know what's going on and i am really scared of forgetting to complete my homework or sth.
Maybe I do shout out irrelevant, lame and idiotic stuff sometimes, but who doesn't? And maybe, I do go out of point sometimes, but then again, who doesn't? And, maybe, I respond too much in class, or you would rather call me over-enthu, but let me say this once again, I AM NOT TRYING TO GAIN ANY TEACHER's FAVOUR, there is just sense of tension when a teacher asks something and nobody responds. I'm just trying to break the ice. It is so sad that everyone thinks people who responds in class are show-offs or smart-aleckies....THAT IS SO UNTRUE!!!!
Plus, I don't understand why, if u dun like me or sth, why muz u continue to be friendly with me and give me all the wrong ideas? Are you acting hypocritical here? Or are you just trying to make friends to know more about me? Or izzit just simply tat you hate me so much the smile's already frozen on ur face whenever u look at me?
The reason i'm writing this at all, is of course, cuz i am really really sad that my class isn't such a nice class, it's really a typical class like my friends' only, my class know how to ACT...ya well, i finally understand why people often describe RGS girls as proud, selfish and fake. I think I can hardly find any true friends in my class except for some..oh wells, i'll just have to tolerate for two and three-quarter years...and Cheryl, i may want to follow in your steps in resigning from the class committee...
THE END.....*sob*sob*
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